Awaiting every heartbeat

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.

Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

 

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

(Bridge to Chorus)

Whom shall I fear, whom shall I fear..

‘Cause I am yours….

-Casting Crowns-

 

This is an old song that spoke to me when I was at a dead end. It has never failed to put me in a calm motion. Assures me that I am never alone. Gives me the serenity of a blessed life.

For HE is the Life we all fight to keep.

I’m smiling for the gift of love.

I’m happy for the life I have.

I’m elated for I am blessed.

I’m appreciative for I am appreciated.

I’m faithful for HE is worthy.

 

Stress surfaces, yet I’m calm.

Prayers answered, answers found.

Joy renewed, rejoicing in song.

Life as I know, has just begun.

So it starts again...
Ever felt like you have tooooooo many things to sort out...and you just don't know where to begin.

Well...
Hi. I'm feeling it real bad. And what's worse..I really really don't know where to start. 
It's not so simple as A-B-C. Even then..you still gotta learn bit by bit. 

In fact, I almost came to a conclusion, and then, I realised that there were small details that I had left out for convenience..and now, I'm back to square one. 

Time cannot be taken for granted. Definitely not. 
One decision affects the next. The chain effect (or something like that..)
And at the end of the day, it will still come back and bite me in the bum. 

So, how do I get out of this dilemma that I've somehow or rather taken upon myself?

And no...it is not a love-life problem. Although...if it were..it would have definitely caused me a lot LESS stress to begin with. 

I need to lie down...head hurts.

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time


A vague answer to my decisions (previous post). Time will always be a factor in life. We just have to embrace it and in time..everything will fall into place. Sometimes we may not understand or see that the intriguing notion would actually be the answer, but that's how  life has to be. We cannot live life with a simple mind and expect things to just roll out like a red carpet. We have to unroll it out ourselves when we have the strength to do so. Bear in mind, decisions we make in life may sometimes be absentmindedly obscure, and in the end, we could get lost halfway down the track. But, we know we can always give a little 'holla' to the Big Man upstairs, and just have faith in Him. After all, through Him, all things are possible.

Everyday, we make decisions for ourselves. It could be just deciding what to wear to work, or which pair of shoes would match, or even which earrings would go best with the top. It is still a decision, no matter how meniscule it may be. Sometimes, going out to eat can be a hassle when trying to decide where to go and eat. Nevertheless, we still manage to make that decision without fail.

But, when it comes to decisions that would change your life substantially, how do you face it? What do you do? Who do you confide in? When do you know you've made the right decision? What is the right decision?

Questions I've asked, but answers I've yet to attain.
Signs I've acknowledged, but responses I've yet to return.
Opportunities I've encountered, but goals I've yet to accomplish.
Pros and cons I've listed, but decisions I've yet to make.

Talking to ones' respective good listening set of ears is always encouraged. But at the end of the day, the one person who should really decide is ones' self. Complications would most likely arise if there are too many opinions, but not necessary to take on. After all, it is only an opinion.

Listen to ones' own heart. Tell apart the differences. Be ones' own judge. But never shut out those who would listen.
It is never too late to start life afresh. If you've missed this train, get on the next. Life's not that short to take on second chances.

How do you know when you're in love?
How do you know when it exists?
How can you predict the future we'd share?
How can you see past all the doubts that occur?

What is it that makes you smile back at me?
What is it that makes you yearn for more?
What do you see when you see me from afar?
What do you feel when I'm in your arms?

Why does it feel brighter when you're here?
Why does walking feel floaty when you're walking with me?
Why do my knees feel wobbly when you hold my hand?
Why do butterflies flock in millions in my stomach?

When will we know what the future brings?
When will we see the changes take effect?
When do people start to realize who we are?
When do we start realize why we are who we are?

Who will be there for me in the end?
Who will hold my hand to cross the road?
Who can see my every need and fulfill my every want?
Who can tell me that life is just beginning and everything will be alright?

Questions we ask; answers we seek.
Doubts we have; we trial and error.
Happiness we dwell in; faith we believe in.
Greatness we achieve; dreams we fulfill.